I dont know why i can't stop thinking how i'll get ditched again, how any bad things would happened to me again, how his love would never be true this time. I can't believe the things he said now. I even dreamt of him dumping me and having several other girlfriends. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Last night had a quarrel with him again, after i was sober from all the alcohol.. Went down still road to find him just like months ago. He confessed that since the day he did wrong for me about natalie, he promised to himself he would never hurt me again. And that this time he'll care for me jing jing.
Cut the craps, show me actions instead.
I guessed i was hurt so bad that time, now i'm afraid of love. Even my aunty and my mom asked me, why go back to him when he was so bad the other time?? I don't know. Every-time i wanna end things up with him, the moment i wanna open my mouth, something would stopped me. Or it's just every-time when i really wanted to start clearing things off, when i hear his voice again, everything seems to fall back to place again..
What's this? tam mai baap nee ka....
Who should i blame? Myself? Or karma?
